watchmakersylar: (Shit eating grin)
One of my followers on Twitter said the nicest thing to me last night. She was watching the Season 4 DVD extras, which I haven't seen since I haven't bought the DVDs, and they were talking about Sylar RPers.

@lady_angelus said: "watching the Heroes bonus features...hmm wondering who this best sylar person they speak of is...hmmmm @TheWatchmaker"

With all the drama and bullshit that seems to fester on Twitter, it's nice comments like that, that make me remember not everyone on there is a poster child for Prozac.

Don't forget you've still got a week to submit for the 12 Days of Sylar!
watchmakersylar: (Bound)
For those of you who have Twitter, Scully [livejournal.com profile] 1breath and I are going to live tweet 4 serial killer episodes of the X-Files .

If you are interested in joining in the fun, you can follow me on Twitter @scully_1breath and @thewatchmaker.

These are the episodes Scully picked out for us to watch.

Wednesday 1.6 4pm PST-
Tooms (Season One)
Irresistible (Season Two)

Thursday 1.7 4pm PST -
Grotesque (Season Three)
Pusher (Season Three)
watchmakersylar: (Little Crazy)
I’m having nightmares, or more accurately memories of what Bennet’s Gabriel did to me when he took my place. Those few days, when I was trapped in my own past, and locked up in a cell on level 5. I hated being Gabriel Gray, and being forced to relive the events of my, oh so exciting, life was torture. I told Bennet and Peter about that, but I didn’t tell them about his personal visits. When he’d come into the cell and touch me while trying to break me. He said I was a waste of a good killer, and that he’d make me one again.

It’s not only what he did to me in that cell, but parts of his life that I absorbed when I killed him. My greed, my need to take back the powers I’d lost to the virus may have caused me more harm than good. Did I need to be able to keep a beer cold, hear a gnat fart or be able to blow up New York? I didn’t take Parkman’s ability. I’ve never wanted to read minds, reading emotions torments me enough, but now I’m starting to wonder if it isn’t still working on me.

I’m afraid I’m losing it. There haven’t been any blackouts that I’ve noticed, but my emotions are frayed. Ever since Gabriel told me what Elle did to him I’ve been angry. It’s brought back all the hurt I felt for her betrayal of me. I’ve been barely able to keep my anger in check. I don’t remember how to be happy or even what it feels like.

Peter tries, and I love him for it. But I’m afraid. When I saw Gabriel in that cell in Bob’s house, I lost all reason. They were going to torture him, break him, turn him into a monster like me, and I can’t allow that. I will die before I let him be turned into another Sylar.

I killed Bob, but I let Elle live. I don’t know why either. She’ll only betray Gabriel or me again. She can’t help it. It’s in her nature. I made her family. I treated her like a sister, and I thought we were friends. But just like every other time I try to make peace with someone I hurt in the past, it’s thrown back in my face that there is no forgiveness for my sins.

Last week I went to Mass, with Gabriel, and I felt nothing but anger there too. I wanted God to strike me down, something, anything, to tell me that what I did mattered. But nothing… The big question is do I want salvation or damnation?

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