watchmakersylar | From Twitter 02-19-2010 (Reply)

@brieh43 I fucked up, but I think it'll be OK eventually. Not going to say it's OK now. It's just better than it was.
@stillgraylikeme Slept which was an improvement. You?
@Beast_Inside Yeah actually I do.
@DarkAngel_V Better. It's going to be awhile before it's all good, but that's OK too.
@brieh43 Thanks :)
@beckyb731 Hey Becky, feeling better?
@stillgraylikeme A few hours with you is better than anything.
@DarkAngel_V You're a good friend, V. I'm here for you too.
@FutureBoyScout How can you miss me? You talk to me all the time.
@beckyb731 Sorry babe
@stillgraylikeme Want to eat something? I don't remember my last meal. I've got bagels.
@stillgraylikeme I would love your company, but don't make me sound like mom. When was the last time you ate?
@FutureBoyScout Let's just say it's a good thing I heal, because I'm walking around a lot of broken glass. It's better tho. You OK?
@stillgraylikeme And I haven't eaten since you got back. So food for both of us.
@stillgraylikeme How about a nice omelet and some bacon? I'm sure could both use the protein.
@FutureBoyScout I like him, you know. He's a good kid. We'll just take things slow, and it'll be OK.
@emtpetrelli txt You're spending too much time with your asshole brother, Pete. Sure we can have coffee.
@stillgraylikeme I will cook. I like cooking for you. There's some new tea too.
@stillgraylikeme "You need food, we both do. I've been living on coffee which for me means sugar, milk and a little coffee. Cheese and -
@stillgraylikeme mushroom sound good?" He's so tired. I'm never letting him out of my sight again. God now I do sound like mom.
@emtpetrelli txt I can't meet for awhile. I need to get some food into Gabe. He hasn't eaten in days.
@emtpetrelli txt Making omelets. I haven't eaten either. It's been days.
@emtpetrelli txt We'll be OK. Is Shithead OK? How about @grayinside?
Hey Tiger. I don't give a shit about where you put your clubs.
@emtpetrelli txt I know, and I'm sorry. It was either this or kill him.
@emtpetrelli txt Then move on. Don't yank his chain.
@FutureBoyScout @emtpetrelli Surprised? I'm not.
@BL00D_ANGEL I prefer anti-hero, but thank you, doll. <3
@stillgraylikeme I put the food on the table along with juice and the tea. He's to tired that it's making me ache. "Gabriel, food's ready."
@stillgraylikeme My fingers automatically go to the back of his neck, gently massaging while he drinks. "I think you fell asleep. Sorry it-
@stillgraylikeme took so long." Please eat. You're scaring me. "Eat the eggs while they're hot."
@stillgraylikeme I want to wolf down everything on my plate and his. I'm starving, and I know it's adding to how brittle I feel. "Gabe, we-
@stillgraylikeme need to eat. Hunger isn't something we wear well." God I broke us. I'm so fucking stupid. I can't fix this. He's here -
@stillgraylikeme because he's tired of fighting me. I sink onto the floor next to his chair and wrap my arms around his waist. "I'll tell-
@stillgraylikeme Peter it's over. I can't stand being like this with you. I need you. I need us. Need my brother back."
@stillgraylikeme "It's you and me." I'm holding him so tight I doubt he can breathe. "We need each other. I want you." I tug him out of the-
@stillgraylikeme chair and onto the floor into my lap, holding him tight. "You're part of me. You... we.... I love you."
@stillgraylikeme "I betrayed you." My lips brush over his forehead and eyelids. "I'm not going to make excuses anymore. I should have had-
@stillgraylikeme more faith. Should have known you'd come back to me. I was stupid and desperate. Mostly stupid."
Why do I giggle when I come back and see there are 69 new tweets?
@kittenspawn It's a Bill N Tedd moment. I have lots of them. Bill N Tedd prompts this week? What do you think?
So sue me. I have Bill N Tedd moments. I bet everyone does.
@stillgraylikeme "Neither worked, I thought you'd fallen back to where you came from. Maybe you did slip time lines for awhile? I don't-
@stillgraylikeme know, but you were gone." I'm not sure if I'm rocking him because he needs it, or I do."
@stillgraylikeme "I think you were." We've scooted until we're against the dining room wall, and I'm holding him so tight. "I kept looking.-
@stillgraylikeme It was like before. When I lost the first Gabriel. I freaked, but instead of killing I found Peter." I know I need to calm-
@stillgraylikeme down, because we're feeding on each other's fear. But I'm not exactly listening to my brain these days. "I don't need it -
@stillgraylikeme all. I need you."
@stillgraylikeme "You don't have to stop being with Candice. You love her. She's our family." I chuckle into his hair. "Sure our family is-
@stillgraylikeme from somewhere in the Deep Deep South, but I'm not jealous of Candice. It was nasty of me to throw her in your face. I was-
@stillgraylikeme being a selfish prick. I'm sorry that I love him, but I love you more. Hell we hate each other most of the time. It's -
@stillgraylikeme a battle every time." Not that, that isn't part of the fun. "Sooner or later he'd remember what I am anyway."
@stillgraylikeme "Yeah he knows. In his time line, I kill Nathan, and take his place. Become President after Peter blew up New York. He's-
@stillgraylikeme killed more people than I could in forever, all because he couldn't control his power. He's damaged, Gabe. He wanted to -
@stillgraylikeme die for what he did, but he can't. I know what that's like. Wanting to die when you can't. It wasn't supposed to be more-
@stillgraylikeme than him giving me someone to fuck with, not someone to fuck. I wanted to hurt him, tear him apart because it was fun."
LMFAO Regretsy http://www.regretsy.com/2010/02/19/wing-flapper/
@stillgraylikeme "I do love him. I won't lie about it. You'd be able to tell, but it was wrong of me to ask you to make the decision. It-
@stillgraylikeme was chicken shit of me. I'm more than capable to doing that. I just didn't want to. But I hate seeing you so hurt. I'm-
@stillgraylikeme glad I stopped you too. You don't do well with murder, not like I do."
RT @colettegabriel: #Heroes100Saturday 6 March 2010!
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@stillgraylikeme My hand is moving in slow circles over his stomach like mom did when we were sick, and my lips brush his neck. "I'll never-
@stillgraylikeme take you on a kill again, Gabe. I don't think I'll be killing alone either. Think I'm done. I don't need it anymore. You-
@stillgraylikeme never did."
@madsies27 What are you watching?
@madsies27 I'm trying to think of the last time John Travolta didn't ruin a movie. Grease?
@Beshter Excellent!
@stillgraylikeme "I thought that's why you were gone, Gabriel." I use his full name, whispering into his ear. "You were so upset about the-
@stillgraylikeme ice man that I thought you ran away." Another kiss, this time at the crook of his neck. "You were so angry with yourself.-
@stillgraylikeme So ashamed for giving into it with me."
@stillgraylikeme "I know there are a lot of issues that we haven't talked about the killing, Elle, and probably more. We avoid talking a -
@stillgraylikeme a lot which is funny since we talk all the time. I know you love me, but I also know I'm hard to like. Peter likes me."
@stillgraylikeme "How to I answer that without sounding like a conceited prick?" I hug him tighter and laugh gently. "Who am I kidding? I -
@stillgraylikeme am a conceited prick. I know you're attracted to me, and I'm attracted to you. Holding you like this makes me want to do-
@stillgraylikeme so many naughty things, but no Gabe, I don't think you like me very much."
@stillgraylikeme "Because I'm very insecure and terrified of being alone. I've been through all that you have plus my own failed attempts-
@stillgraylikeme to be loved. I play monster to chase people away, You know that, but when someone likes the monster, I eat it up."
@stillgraylikeme "Yeah and all of that before this mess." I touch my forehead on the back of his head, breathing in his scent. "It's OK, -
@stillgraylikeme we're always going to love each other. We don't have like each other 24/7. I'd say we could get matching tattoos, but mom-
@stillgraylikeme would freak, and they wouldn't take anyway." I reach for his hand and hold it palm to palm with mine. "That is our blood, -
@stillgraylikeme our flesh and our souls together. Even when we're not touching we're together. I love you."
@Holodeck_Girl HELL YES!!!!
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@stillgraylikeme "We could get rings?" It's like the release of pressure after a storm. The air's crisp and clear, and I can breathe. "I am-
@stillgraylikeme here, Gabriel. I'm not going anywhere." I get up slowly, missing his warmth almost instantly, and hold my hands to pull -
@stillgraylikeme him up to his feet. "Omelet's ruined, but we need to eat. How about peanut butter sandwiches, and we go back to bed?"
@stillgraylikeme "You know me. I love to make plans." I gently push him back into the chair, leaning over to give him a kiss. My lips press-
@stillgraylikeme against his, before I nibble on the corner of his. "Drink my juice too. I'll get you more while I make the sandwiches."
@stillgraylikeme My fingers card through his hair, pulling his mouth tight against mine, my tongue sliding into his mouth. It's a desperate-
@stillgraylikeme hungry kiss. I want him so badly that I can barely think. "Must eat... food....munch on you after."
@stillgraylikeme "Peanut butter." I take a big drink. of milk to wash it down. "May have been a mistake. Next time something we can eat -
@stillgraylikeme faster. Or we go straight for the cookies and cake. Get the sugar rush, and if I shut up, we can get upstairs faster."
@FutureBoyScout I hate you. Fucker.
@FutureBoyScout Nothing. Don't worry about it.
@FutureBoyScout I miss you, OK. I'm trying to fix it, but I don't know if I am or making it worse.
@FutureBoyScout Love you too.
Sinus headache from HELL. Time for bed. Frelling weird weather.
@lifetimedreamer Thanks Pete