Almost a Year

[watchmakersylar]

Dear heart_beat

In 2 more days it'll be a year since I spoke to you last on AIM. You said that you were on the transplant list, and that you'd hopefully get a new heart. I never saw you again, and I miss you. We weren't friends long before you got sick, but I felt a connection with you. We were family for those few weeks before your accident, and you're still family in my heart. I don't know for certain if you're gone from this world, but I think you have escaped the Hell that life on Earth can be. Every time someone around me cries about how rough their life is, I want to scream at them that they should be happy because they had a life. You weren't even 19 when we talked last December 31st.

You were the first Evil Sylar that RP'd Sylar/Sylar with mine. You were the first Big Bad on rp_shadesofgray, and you were my sister.

I miss you.

I love you.

And I hope that someday our souls will touch again.

PS - I will never remove your LJ from my FList or your ID from my AIM.

Comments

[harukafairbanks.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you lost someone so close to you, Honey. I know words don't mean a lot sometimes. But I do hope you two find each other again. I don't know if this applies or not. But for not know them for long. This quote may mean something to you

“A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, and make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life.”

[sylar.livejournal.com]

I'd shoved the worry under the rug for quite a few months, but now I have to face the facts that my friend probably died. I wish her family had contacted me like I asked, so I'd know. I think I've known for a long time, but this coming up on the year makes me realize that yeah, she's gone. Poor kid. She never had a chance to fuck up all the things I have in my life.

*hugs*

[empath-peter.livejournal.com]

Holds you. Not saying anything.

[sylar.livejournal.com]

Thanks sweetie. Needs that.

[ellezoebishop.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tight and silently cries with you because this touched my heart deeply* Just remember that your friend will never truly leave you sweetheart, she'll live forever in your heart and your memories.