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I didn't want to move. This was the only place I felt safe anymore, safe, wanted or needed. When I was in Heidi's bedroom I didn't wonder who I was, and why I felt so disconnected. I felt like I belonged. It was harder to leave each and every time. I brushed my thumb over her beautiful lips, and reluctantly forced myself to move. I stretched, feeling the muscles in my shoulders shift.
"My head hurts," I told her. My neck hurt and my face, but that was becoming a daily occurrence. The pain wasn't chronic, but it happened in spurts. Like all the other weird things that had been going on. Keys and coffee cups flying into my hands, the lightning that fried the laptop in my office last week. All this moments of power that no one could explain to me, except possibly Peter, and he still wouldn't return my calls. I was beginning to hate him.
"Do you think the boys would forgive me if I did hide in bed with you all day?" I closed my eyes and stretched out next to her again, hoping that she'd say it'd be all right to stay home. "I don't suppose we know anyone who can make it rain?"
I didn't want to move. This was the only place I felt safe anymore, safe, wanted or needed. When I was in Heidi's bedroom I didn't wonder who I was, and why I felt so disconnected. I felt like I belonged. It was harder to leave each and every time. I brushed my thumb over her beautiful lips, and reluctantly forced myself to move. I stretched, feeling the muscles in my shoulders shift.
"My head hurts," I told her. My neck hurt and my face, but that was becoming a daily occurrence. The pain wasn't chronic, but it happened in spurts. Like all the other weird things that had been going on. Keys and coffee cups flying into my hands, the lightning that fried the laptop in my office last week. All this moments of power that no one could explain to me, except possibly Peter, and he still wouldn't return my calls. I was beginning to hate him.
"Do you think the boys would forgive me if I did hide in bed with you all day?" I closed my eyes and stretched out next to her again, hoping that she'd say it'd be all right to stay home. "I don't suppose we know anyone who can make it rain?"
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Date: 2009-10-02 12:50 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2009-10-02 02:20 am (UTC)From:Sure we could spend it as a family, but we've been doing that pretty much every day since he returned. "When mom comes and gets the kids, I'll ask her to take them for the weekend."
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Date: 2009-10-02 10:26 pm (UTC)From:no subject
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Date: 2009-10-03 11:56 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2009-10-04 12:47 am (UTC)From:My hand is still in her hair as she stretches out on my chest. I run my other hand down her back, fingers lightly trailing down her spine. We should get remarried, but it's probably too soon for that.
"When's your mother coming?"
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Date: 2009-10-04 12:57 am (UTC)From:no subject
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Date: 2009-10-04 01:30 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2009-10-04 05:20 am (UTC)From:After my shower, I get dressed and go downstairs to make breakfast for my family. I've never been happier.